the tale of the invisible one

If only you could see me now. You could not. But I am here. I have been watching you silently for ages. I have not taken my stare away from you, not once.

It was a long long time ago when I first set my eyes on you. You were very busy doing what you had to do at that time. Until now, you do that very same thing- getting yourself busy.

I could not remember how, but when I happened to see you first, I started to go gaga over you. You always become the best in the world at everything you do. At least, that is how I see it. I laid and fixed my eyes on you.

I have been staring closely at you. I have been watching your every move. You have been absorbed in all the things you do. Yes, I have been looking at you for a very long time already, yet not once, you did notice.

To me, you are everything. You are the whole goddamn world. But to you, I am even worst than nothing. I do not exist in your world. You could not see me intently staring at you. But I am here. I swear, I am here. My eyes are on you.

If only you could see me now. You would see how miserably miserable I am for having been invisible to your eyes. Not once, you did notice. Not once. But I am here.

That hurts me. My eyes are piercing you. But not once, it did occur to you. It shatters me. Yet, I sealed my eyes on you.

Once, someone slapped me with that fact. And I cried. Not just because it tasted like copper in my mouth, but also because it is true. Absolutely, irrevocably true.

I cried like a baby. I cried because the truth hurts me. But then, that someone told me something. Maybe it was to console me but at least, it gave me hope.

She told me, "But who knows, he could have felt it."


Yes. Who knows, you could have felt my cold eyes fixed on you. You could have felt me staring at you. You could have felt my existence after all. But still, you could not see me. You could just feel me gazing at you and at everything you do. And you could not see me.

Fair enough. At least, I am not just the one helpless. If I am miserable, so are you. Only, it has not yet occurred to you.

Right now, I would still keep on watching you. My eyes would never leave you. But I am telling you, one day, these eyes would drive your sanity away. I swear.

One day, you would be able to see me. Rest assured, I would make that happen. No matter what, I would certainly make that happen. You will be then looking at the eyes that had spied on you for such a very long time. By then, I would be able to get what I want. I am certain about it.

If only you could see me now. You would see that I never wanted anything but you. You could not. But I am here.