hello to a stress free life!! :)))

"New year, new life", I told myself for the nth time. Yet every year, still the same. What's new? I always end up to be the same person I really do not want to be- the monster me.

I got tired of me. I got tired of everyone and everything. I got tired of trying to fix what I cannot fix and I got tired of failing as much as I got tired of expecting a different result yet doing the same thing.. over and over again.

I want to start all over again, for the nth time. But I am scared to disappoint myself again.

Something's got to give. I left our house for good at the moment. I am planning to leave this city and eventually this country. What awaits me does not scare me anymore because I am already scared to death of everything.

I know i could not regain what has been lost. But I could make something out of what's left of it.

Now, I am going to remove unnecessary luggage out of my life. I am going to leave things I could not imagine living without. I will not give a damn anymore about what people would think or say about me. I will cease arguing with one- track minded people. I am going to stop misjudging people by not judging anyone at all. I am going to free myself from worries, anxiety, hatred, wrath, and bitterness which had oppressed me for years. I am going to be happy when I could. I will try to live a care free life like that of a kid's. Lastly, I am going to sleep more, dream more, live those dreams.

I welcome myself to a stress free life. :)))))